not one minute your kids, your partner, your loved ones, your friends. Things happen all too quick that forever change us. Just promise me you will tell them all you love them and give them the biggest kiss ever.
Last night had to one of the most horrible nights for me. There was an emergency at daycare. Thankfully it did not involve Nora, but it really affected me and I am sure everyone who takes their kids there. I need to start off by saying that stumbling on this daycare was the best thing I could have ever done. Nora loves the girls that run this place. I think she has only ever cried twice when I left and that was when she was feeling a little under the weather. Typically she looks at me with this look on her face like she is wondering why I am still there and that I could leave at any time. I totally trust them with Nora and in fact frequently ask them questions about raising my daughter. I love them and they mean so much to me and my family.
I am not really sure why I am documenting this. Maybe it is so I don't forget how I am feeling right now, maybe so I will never take things for granted as quickly and easily as I usually tend to. I am home right now with my little one so the girls at daycare can take a day or two to heal. I so hope they will be able to heal so we can take Nora back to them. They lost one of the little babies. Something like this has never happened to them in the 20+ years they have been in business. It was SIDS. Something out of anyone's control. The guilt and sadness they must be feeling. I get a pit in my stomach whenever I have the thought flash through my head. All I can do is squeeze Nora a little tighter and tell her I love her.
